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2012 Year End Review: Part III

This year has been a year of doing things I usually don’t do. It has been stepping more out of my bounds and pushing the boundaries further. It has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs. But that’s life, no?

I won’t lie, my downs have been more “down” than I have experienced in quite some time. I have questioned a lot of what I have done. My resolve, my actions, my everything. I wondered if I was delusional. Along the way I was told a lot of things to pull me back together. I was reassured that some people appreciated what I did. I told myself I have no time to slow down or be sorry for anyone, including me. My first major goal in life is in reach.

In 2013 I will be serving in the internship I wanted to – at the state capitol of California. I came to Sacramento State for this one reason; that’s it. Not for anything else, but the internship that might put me where I want to be. When I finish my internship, I will graduate. I will accomplish the goal that seemed so impossible. I have spent nine years changing majors, and feeling like I am getting no where. There were times I thought I’d never be this close. But now it is here. I will be graduating. I can worry about graduation ceremonies and things that go into that; not classes for next semester, etc.

However, I have applied for graduate school. Hopefully I will get in to get my master’s (fairly quick I hope). We will see how 2013 goes. I will be finishing my term as KSSU Station Manager (maybe), as well as serving on the Board of Directors for Capital Public Radio. I will be a college graduate as well. 2013 has a lot to offer in the way of good. I hope that this relationship is what I’ve been looking for. So far so good. The true adult life is around the corner where I have to get a full time job, pay more bills, etc. I’m excited but not sure what to do. College has been my life. We will see what awaits for me outside. 2013 will be an even greater push out of my boundaries and into a world unknown. We will see if I am ready or not. Just the same, we will see if the world is ready for me. 2012 ended as well as it could have. Fairly according to plan. Hopefully one year from now, 2013 will end with me in a full time job or in grad school…or both.

All of this I wrote for me, moreso than you. However, I hope you find some insight from my life in how to live yours. My message, as it always is, is to live a life where you are happy. We can’t spend too much time wondering about the what if’s and whether we are doing the right things. Just do it. Act. Live. Every so often do what I did here and reflect on where you came from and where you like to be and see if you are accomplishing that. Good luck to you all. I hope nothing but the best for me, as well as you.


2012 Year End Review: Part II

The second half of the year started with a bang. Only one of the four classes I was taking in the fall was necessary to graduate. The rest of the classes I felt would come in handy with life. I also got the KSSU Station Manager job too. As an outsider looking in, it doesn’t look so bad. However, there is a lot of work that goes unheard and unsung behind the scenes. Having the experience of interviewing potential DJs and interns has been an eye opening experience. I think my approach in applying for new jobs will be different given my experience.

The hardest part of the second half of the year was juggling working out, school, work, and my extracurricular activities outside of school (being an advisor for a youth group). I was being worn ragged by the many activities, many driving around, and little time for me. But I did it all for the experience and joy of life. It was challenging but I enjoyed NOT working late nights anymore.

Throughout the second half of the year I had the opportunity to interview Zion I, The Ascetic Junkies, and The Fontaine Classic. It was a great experience that gave me even more perspective on life and how to take care of things.

This second part of 2012 was definitely getting the experience of doing more things that I never thought I could do.

In late October, my girlfriend and I went our separate ways. For a second time this year I was at a loss of what to do. But this time, I had an idea of how to move on and move past it. Through concerted effort I did.

2012 wraps up with more interesting experiences with visits to the hospital as youths from my youth group went in for various accidents, to interesting experiences I had to deal with at the radio station as manager. And at the finish of it I am in my third relationship this year (third time is a charm?).



Stay tuned for Part III with my closing thoughts on 2012 and hopes for 2013.

2012 Year End Review: Part I

So every year before Christmas I attempt, to the best of my abilities, to pause and reflect on the year that has come and past. This year is no different. In my life, things can be classified by iconic years for me. 2007 and 2009 were renaissance years where personality wise I have pushed myself to new heights. 2010 and 2012 would be years where I have accomplished more than I could ever imagine possible.

So 2012 had looked to be an extremely good year. I had been with my girlfreind of the time for a year, I had a new job on campus, and all was going well. School-wise, things were going well; almost at the finish line to graduate with just a few more semesters to go. Life was where I wanted it.

2012 started swimmingly with a trip to the emergency room, my first time ever. I had been bitten in the face by my girlfriend’s dog. It was an interesting experience that changed my outlook on things. It was from that point forward that my girlfriend at the time started to fade I think, now that I look back. Come March, her and I decided to go separate ways.

2012 became a bit more challenging because of that. I had a job that carried over from 2011. I was Safe Rides Assistant Coordinator at Sacramento State University. The late night driving was rough but I made it work. Still, with work and school, it became hard to focus. I felt lost after that.

Spring Break I spent at my brother’s house in San Francisco. That is what helped recharge me to tackle 2012. I started going to the gym thanks to him, and just getting out of the valley helped focus me. I had made amends with those who I was rude to during my relationship too – including an ex-girlfriend and a best friend of mine. My best friend and kept in good contact from there out and became gym buddies too.

The first half on 2012 was pretty solid. I rediscovered who I was, and gave myself more purpose. I was one year from graduating, and started dating my best friend. There was also a job opportunity to become manager of the radio station I volunteered for. I spent the rest of summer putting in my time in the radio station, and doing a few things here and there to have fun and relax. Life was good.

Part II to come soon…

The Rush of Emotions

It is hard to put emotions down into words.  Whether you are trying to explain to someone why you love or hate someone so much, or how sad or happy you feel.  It is hard.  But I still feel obligated to tell you how I have felt lately.

Just yesterday I received the third good news in a three part ordeal.  I have been meeting with various advisors to see how my progress for college has been.  Good news!  All in all, I only have one class I have to take to graduate!  That was the best news.

My reaction was way mixed.  There is a sudden rush of emotions that hit me knowing this, and will hit me again when I graduate.   Read the rest of this entry

Y-Gen At Work

As I start writing this article, it is currently 1:04 AM.  Supposedly it is 61 degrees Fahrenheit outside but it doesn’t feel that – feels a bit warmer.  I am currently working on the job.  What job allows me to write?  Certainly no journalistic job, that’s for sure (I wish it was though, sometimes).  I work on my school campus.  It is one of the few entities that works during the day and night.

I usually spend this time, and my time commuting to and from here, thinking about life and where I am at – via achievements and goals, emotionally, physically, etc.  I wonder how I am personally doing and have I done everything I wanted to do.

The random thought of tonight was on my predecessor.  He was a cool guy, to me.  I can’t say I looked up to him but I did respect him.  We had good times kickin’ it and I had zero complaints.  However, I’ve heard quite a bit of bad as this year has progressed.  The most common complaint is how rude is was to some, if not many, of the groups who volunteer at my work. Read the rest of this entry

On a Quest for God

Growing up, I went to church all the time.  It was the worst.  Why?  Whoever’s idea it was to put kids who already sit through school through one more session of sitting still was rough and lame!  It wasn’t that church itself sucked, or that religion sucked.  It is the weekend!  But I digress… Read the rest of this entry

Happiness Redux

March 30th, 2012 comes to a close.  With it, the close of the California Mega Million drawing and many people’s hopes for a new start, a new lease on life.  All over Facebook and other social networking sites, my friends, and even strangers, tell of dreams dashed against the rocks, as everyone was either dreaming for a piece of the $640 million or the entire pot itself.  If anyone else was like myself, they reached a euphoria just purchasing one (or five, in my case) lottery tickets.  Handing over that one dollar per ticket launched everyone to cloud 9, and everyone soon forgot all the problems and postulated on the “could-be’s.”  But now, it turns into “never will’s.” Read the rest of this entry

In the Pursuit of Happiness…

For whatever reason recently, I have been trying to figure out love and relationships.  It has been the over ruling thought of my mind since I have graduated high school eight years ago.  I like to claim I am a non-emotional person, but I really am.  I try not to show too much in the way of emotions, but my Latino blood boils me to show various emotions that override any stereotypical law of being a man (and therefore not showing emotion) and the fact that I pride myself in having a decent degree of logic engrained in myself.

But still, all in all, I like being in a relationship.  That doesn’t mean I have to always be in one, but I love love.  I love to love and be loved in return.  Pretty sure a good chunk of people on the planet do (or at I would like to naively think so at least). Read the rest of this entry

A Taste of Destiny?

Some people are born with it.  Others can gain it over time.  What is “it”?  Greatness, of course.  History is filled with tales of those who have accomplished great things.  Some of them were like so since they were a child.  Everyone knew they would do something great, it was a matter of time.  Meanwhile, others still accomplished great things even though their childhood did not discern much information towards their future.

In the United States, and possibly most developed countries, everyone wishes and hopes to be their own boss.  People want to do great things so they can live great lives.  As we should all, hopefully, know, not everyone gets to be at the top of the mountain, or even near the top.  We may taste some victory as we accomplish some goals and accolades along the journey of life, but not many will reach the lifestyle they dream, or do what they wish to do.  Read the rest of this entry

What Next?

What Next?
By: Josue “Josh” Alvarez Mapp

So I am single.  Just recently put back into bachelorhood.  It is weird.  The relationship was “just” a year and three months.  But I was almost certain that was the relationship; that she was the  one.  But she isn’t. For the past four days I’ve had minimal communication with her, and nothing but questions and confusion has resulted from that.  I am at a lot. Read the rest of this entry